Relationship and Questions

What defines a relationship?

Is it the first kiss you share with another person? Is it the first "I love you"? Or maybe your first big fight which ended in tears and kisses and i love you?

Is it when you expect him to message you the moment he wakes up because you will definitely message him as soon as your eyes open? Or is it when you expect him to say he misses you because thats exactly how you feel?


Is it when you wait for him at night hoping he will come "home" to you and you try hard to stay awake even when you are too tired just so you can welcome him with a kiss when he arrives? Is it when you take extra effort to prepare a meal for him with hopes that he will appreciate what you just created from scratch?

Is it when you start giving too much, your everything, and you expect him to give you something back, no matter how little, just something?

Is it when he expects you to be available for him whenever he needs you and even when you are not you actually find a way to be available? Or when he asks you to do something for him and even when your not really up to it you still do it just to make him happy?

Is it when he makes you cry and you make him feel sorry enough to actually say sorry? Or when he makes you mad and drives you crazy and you demand he call you and he does and you become madder and crazier in whole different passionate level?

Is it when you talk until the morning and it seems that you have too many things to talk about when in truth, you can't talk about the future because you know he is not planning on spending it with you and you can't talk about today because today is just borrowed and it hurts to talk about borrowed moments and all you talked about really is the past which you've already talked about way too many times, because that's the only thing you shared that's true or so you think?

Or is when you try to make him understand you and you wanna yell at him and hurt him just so he will at least have an idea of how much he hurt you but instead you turn your back and cover your face with a pillow and cry in silence?

Or is it when you realized your no longer happy being miserable and you just wanna run away and start over but you don't wanna hurt him or disappoint him and even if you don't wanna hurt yourself either, you take the path where he would hurt less even if you are not really sure if he cares enough to actually hurt?

Is this a relationship? What kind and what defines its kind?