trust and distrust

You say I'm cynical... I say, everyone I've trusted broke my heart.

End

"When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done. Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. Don't resent me and when your feeling empty, keep me in your memories... leave out all the rest... leave out all the rest."

Ironic that my first entry would be about the end but for the past few days these words have been playing in my head over and over.

How will I be remembered when I go?

Or will I be remembered at all?

The thing with going is that everyday, your absence would mean less and less to the people you've cared about and those whom you've loved and even to those who loved you dearly. After you go, everyone will move on without you and you will have to move on without them. You part ways and this time, you can never go back... or maybe... but who knows...nobody lived to tell. All that would be left of you are the memories they keep of you.

I'm just wondering... if I go now, would the memories I leave in everyone who knew me be enough for them to miss me?

I don't believe in mourning. I don't want to be mourned. I just wanna be remembered..every now and then because I know... if there is life after death, I will remember life and I will surely miss it.

But I'm not dying soon... God I hope not!